As a 29 year old WTM, or as I like to refer to myself a " veteran virgin" I'm so happy to have found this site and have already been very encouraged by what I've read, so I wanted to add my two cents in hopes of paying that encouragement forward. Until very recently, my singleness was a constant source of self torment. I am a Christian and I believe in God but for a long time I felt like I was being punished,overlooked or simply forgotten by Him. You see I have shared exactly one kiss; and although I have dated, I've never had a boyfriend. To add insult to injury, I happen to be a very sexual woman, which only magnifies the struggle to wait. I can remember many nights since at home by myself crying and praying and asking out loud what was wrong with me? Why hadn't it happened for me yet? Then the straw that broke the camel's back, my friend got engaged. The friend who I had been trying to drop to Christ, but didn't leave yet. The friend who was only 23 years old. The friend who said she never wanted to get married. The friend who by myself admission was a little promiscuous and already had a child out of wedlock! ( Oh, how judgemental I was) I was angry and heartbroken, this had to be a joke.
Here I was, waiting, praying, striving and the thing that I have wanted and desired most what's being experienced by someone who didn't even believe. sounds pretty high and mighty huh? I know and I agree with you but that's exactly how I felt. I short time after her wedding still for business I was reading Bible and came across a few scriptures that literally lit up before me on the page. The one that stuck out most was Psalm 84:11 " No good thing will he withhold from them that walk uprightly." In that instant my perception of my single status. I realized that God was not punishing me, but protecting me. I never had a boyfriend because He knows me better than I know myself. If I had a boyfriend, my virginity would be non-existant, (because of the aforementioned sexuality). And hard as it is to swallow, I was not doing what God instructed me to do. Instead I was complaining and whining. Since God showed me this I have begun to really seek Him and develop my relationship with him and even though it's still hard the lonely days are much less frequent. I no longer have you being single and some kind of disease that I can't be cured from I have you as a time where I'm supposed to be spending quality time with God and preparing to be somebody's wife! My question is this ,what was your are aha moment when you realized that singleness isn't as awful as it's cracked up to be? What is your perception while you wait?